these ruined acts.

i can't read his mind.
i wander what he wants.
did he want anything from me at all.
then was everything i felt
only from the needs of my own mind...

maybe i was just walking alone.
maybe he never thought of me at all.
maybe
he even meant to hurt me.

buttercup bakes at home.

recently checked this book out from the library. i have to say, it's not often you get a cookbook that has every recipe you've ever dreamed of. unfortunately, the recipes are not vegan, but it's ever so easy to fix that :)

i have only made two recipes out of the book so far, since the days before i leave for my trip are getting closer and closer.

first thing i whipped up were peanut butter and jelly cupcakes with chunky peanut butter frosting. instantly got the feel for a slumber party filled with childhood favorite movies tucked away in bed. thumbs up.

second thing i made was a lime cheesecake with gingersnap crust. this recipe is super versatile, so next time around i'm going to make a lemon version.

the cookbook was written by jennifer appel, who has written a couple of others and owns a bakery called, you guessed it, the buttercup bake shop located in new york.

http://buttercupbakeshop.com/

on a note other than baking, i can not put down a monster's notes and will finish this before i leave for europe.

seattle/rainfest

i'm going to start off with the food. because if anyone knows me, they know i love to eat. a lot. sooooo many yummy things were eaten on this trip. we had falafel at aladdin's, pad thai with tofu at in the bowl, pizza with daiya cheese and spinach, artichokes, broccilli, green peppers and onions at pizza pi, "buttermilk" fried chicken, fries, and sausage gravy and biscuits at wayward cafe, more noodles and tofu again at in the bowl, and sweet potatoes, polenta, grilled seitan, tofu scramble, biscuits and gravy, peppers and onions, and caramelized apples at a little soul place in tacoma. these are the things i remember. i fell into a food coma after day one and couldn’t help myself.

most importantly, food-wise, i went to mighty o's and ate a total of a dozen donuts on my trip. here are the following ones i got into: mint grasshopper, chocolate peanut butter, chocolate raspberry, chocolate glaze with sprinkles, glazed with sprinkles, cocoloco, french toast, cinnamon and sugar, lemon poppyseed, nutty chocolate, chocolate top, and a good old glazed one. i think you might be clinically insane if someone puts you in a mighty o’s and you don’t try at least three or four different kind of donuts. the second pastry place we went to was the flying apron, where i got a maple raspeberry cupcake and pecan roll. i was sent on a mission to try out the bakeries i could find in seattle, and i was pretty impressed. better to give in sooner than later and admit defeat. my cupcake and pastry indulging ways are here to stay.

travel wise and trip wise, every day we hit up different places. we got to see the best of the best of the city. the space needle, the wall, the city look out, vintage and costume shops, and archie mcphee's. the weather was so-so. i didn’t mind the rain, and got used to it pretty quick. i missed the sun, and the heat, but i didn’t miss the humidity that comes with our weather.

as for rainfest,

friday picks were foundation, rotting out, trapped under ice, bad seed and soul control.

saturday picks were disembodied, indecision, backtrack, the carrier, and vanguard.

sunday picks were harm's way, dangers, end of a year, mindset, terror, and title fight.

i met a lot of rad people this fest, and saw a lot of people that i hadn't seen since last time they came through. i couldn't ask for better people to be surrounded by and spend my nights with. hope to keep in touch with all of them.

i leave for germany in less than two weeks, and will be hitting up shows there and possibly a fest. travel plans and maps are my focus for time when i'm not at school or work. will be coming back to america with this is hardcore a couple of days away.

this post doesn't do enough justice for all of the people i stayed with every night and all of the hugs i could give out.

live hard, party hard, be hard.